Written  And Composed by: Simon Spencer
Performed by: Jimmy Humbucker.
© 2025 All Rights Reserved. 

When you wake up, don’t forget me.

Every step feels very heavy.

Restless warrior, searching for the light.

Wondering if it’s even worth the fight

Chorus:

This is the battlefield of the mind,

My mind Is lit like the Palisadese htm fire

Fighting to stand here, to make it through it all

A war fought in silence, where I draw the line

And I will fight the fire, but one thing I know

Is I will not give in.

Lost in judgement, throw away the keys

Of a prison that I only made for me

What’s the use in even trying

When d I know if I will win?

La la la la

La la la

La las la la laahhhh (x2)

And when they come to find me, all I will say is.

This is a battlefield of the mind

I’m not a quitter, but this OCD is destroying my desire

Fighting to stand here, to make it through it all

A war fought in silence, where I draw the line

And I will fight the fire, but one thing I know

I will not give in.

I’m not depressed. This just sounds good

I'm not a mess, but I love this tune

And these lyrics may be pointless

But I got nothing to complain about

When heavy are the times, 

We all need someone to lean on

With chaos on our minds, no better remedy

Than family, and anything to keep you happy

I am not telling you how to feel

But I just think you should follow my vibe.

We all got the power to change the world

But first we must change how we see it

When heavy are the times, 

We all need someone to lean on

With chaos on our minds, no better remedy

Than family, and anything to keep you happy

I’m happy, but scared

I’m emotionally unprepared, but I’m ok.

A Message from Jimmy.

Hi Friends.

It’s Jimmy; I got a little message as we roll into 2025. 

First off I wanted to start by saying thank you for being with me on this journey of mine for so long, for those who have stayed on this far.

What started in 2014 with my first release of “¡Little One!” has turned into a passion project of mine many of you have come to know as Jimmy Humbucker.

Following the “¡Little One!” EP in 2014 was “¡La Niña!” in 2018, and the dual-song collection “QuaranTunes” in 2021. 

Over the years, from the bars of Oakville, such as “The Moonshine Cafe” and “Less Than Level,” to the suburbs of Toronto and Hamilton, including Toronto’s Kensington Market – many of my friends and peers have watched and seen me at all kinds of shows over the years, not just a musician but loyal music supporter and fan. 

But during my visit to Canadian Music Week this year, I was fortunate enough to meet a fellow mental health warrior through music, ROSIE, who opened for Devon Cole, another stellar upcoming local pop artist that I have mutual connections with.

As someone who’s battled with mental health issues since my diagnosis of Tourette Syndrome in 2008 (and later OCD in 2011), I applauded these artists for their work. And with my career, I can’t say I’m quite satisfied yet 

I’ve always been an overachiever, and so in 2025 and beyond, I aim to do just that—bring Jimmy’s presence even further by speaking out about mental health using my platform—in some ways literally. 

This means becoming a brand ambassador for a new mental health public speaking initiative I am developing. SimonTics.

SimonTics x Jimmy Humbucker

SimonTics is a separate and brand-new initiative from Jimmy Humbucker, but I need to discuss it here as it relates to my music work. 

The name SimonTics was born out of my own experience of living with a condition called Tourette Syndrome since my 2008 diagnosis. Tourette’s is characterized by constant involuntary movements called tics. Hence SimonTics. 

But more than spreading awareness for Tourette’s it is a new initiative that has been born this year out of my mind which aims to spread awareness and education to the masses about neurodiverse conditions and mental health through public speaking and content creation. 

Some of this content includes music, which means that in the upcoming months and years, I’m going to begin writing music that relates more to people with mental health conditions as a brand ambassador, known as musician Jimmy Humbucker. 

I am looking forward to this new direction in my Jimmy Humbucker journey, which began more than 10 years ago and now relates to my other professional endeavours. I’m looking forward to seeing where the new writing and broader SimonTics initiative will take me and sharing it with you all.

More on this coming next year.

June 20, 2016, was a big day. I was graduating from my postsecondary career and had already submitted all my final exams and projects. The only stress left was to walk across the stage without falling off or taking the wrong degree.

We got there early in the morning. My folks and I waited in the foyer for the ceremony to start. After all was said and done, my best friend Adrien and I took an amazing, unforgettable shot of our degrees that still exists to this day as a favorite photo in my app.

We were young, ambitious, and ready to take on the world and apply all we had learned to reach our professional goals.

But sometimes, things don’t work out that way. Sometimes the universe has other plans. Sometimes, the mountain still needs climbing.

It’s now June 20, 2024 – 8 years later. This is being written at a quarter to 11 at night and will be autocorrected and grammatically re-written by an advanced AI called ChatGPT that threatens to take the jobs of more than half the industries on the planet by the end of the 2020s.

Adrien and I said our final goodbyes to each other on a snowy February night at Square One sometime in 2018 as he left this country to go back to his country of origin with no plans to return. I only communicate with him from time to time and have not seen him in person since. They say that some people come into your life for a purpose, to give you a lesson, only to then leave your life because they had fulfilled their purpose. Adrien taught me to live, seize every opportunity and every chance at something, and go for it. Because he knows the mountain still needs climbing.

Before the world shut down (COVID-years), I had a good job at a non-profit, albeit part-time. It was in my field and the pay was quite reasonable for me still living at home post-grad. I was also in a retail gig part-time, but we won’t go there. Before that organization had to restructure due to the hands of COVID and a dying nonprofit industry, they let me go. I was upset but in hindsight grateful for what it had taught me. Because the mountain still needs climbing.

At this point, I’ve spent more time doing things that I didn’t study than I did spend time studying them. I work in retail, dabble in music, and also do content creation.

Eight years on from this day in 2016, I don’t regret going to school. I regret believing in the dream it teaches you. At the same time, that dream is dying. The world is changing, and for most grads these days, you will need different and maybe even unrelated skills to your studies sooner than you think, because the world is changing faster than ever. And yet, the mountain still needs climbing.

In a way, 2024 is a blank page for me. I’m doing a lot of different things in the professional realm and hoping something sticks. At this point, for me, school was a good lesson, but it was not the end of learning. I plan to go full-time into the music industry in my 30s while focusing on my advocacy work and using it as my value proposition (thanks, Marketing Class).

All this to say, it seems crazy to think June 20, 2016, the last day of my postsecondary education, was such a milestone at the time. Because it felt like I had won the race and could now retire. But I just needed to start climbing faster.

A SOLAR ECLIPSE STORY.

There’s something about when the world turns dark for even just 10 minutes, only to be restored with sunlight.

It makes you think how lucky we are to experience such a rare occurrence in the world as a collective experience – once in a lifetime, you might say.

It made me think how small, vulnerable, and precious this little world is in the broader universe, and what’s at stake if humanity ever loses its way.

It’s almost like the eclipse today was the universe’s way of telling us that humanity is in a period of renewal. During COVID, we all know a lot of people experienced fundamental changes in their lives – at this point that is no secret.

But early on in those years, I began to ask myself and ponder things like – maybe all this was happening for a reason. What if it was? Or what if this was the universe’s way of “rebooting” the timeline – as in our own timeline. Our history, our past, present and future.

A lot of people around me echoed similar beliefs as the years went on. There was a light at the end of the tunnel – they’d always say.

What if today was that light – however symbolic that may sound. Or, at very best a message from our universe telling us we are going to be ok? I still see the light coming out of the darkness towards the end of today’s cosmic event., like a new sunrise, and think to myself – if there’s one thing I want to hit restart on, now the time to do it.

Our world needed cleansing in many ways. Do you think the solar eclipse happened when we most needed it to? I’d love to hear your thoughts. 

I’m on the road to ruin

I’ve lost everything I hove

I’m on the road to nowhere

The abyss awaits, the dice have been cost

I’m on the road to to ruin

Been en route for some time now

I’m going way past the line

And I don’t know how the fuck to get back

Where do I go from here? Oh oh

Why is nothing clear? No oh oh

On this fucking road to ruin

I’m past the stage of burnout, and no one’s coming to save me now

I’ve lost the life I knew, and there’s no more light at the end of the tunnel

Where do I go from here? Oh oh

Why is nothing clear? No oh oh

On this fucking road to ruin

I’m on the road to ruin

But something tells me it won’t keep me back

Why is nothing clear? No oh oh

On this fucking road to ruin

Hey Federal Marshall/been a long time sorry this bitch don’t rhyme

Hey Federal Marshall/where are you at, where are you going can you answer that

Hey little Miss Moon/You wanna see me soon, but I don’t think fate has it that way too

Hey Mr. Brave, you left your cave and faced the world early/Now it’s been too long, to many years to count, I should see you soon.

Hey all of my forgotten/don’t you worry no I haven’t forgotten

So I’m writing this to you/ like a love letter to my past we shall forever last

In cyberspace, we are united united once more

In cyberspace, we are united foreveromore

The hardest part of growing up is leaving you/so many days of our childhood ways all with you

Some nights I sit down, and think of that town where we all grew up

And I see you, in cyberspace

¡Little One! (feat. Napalm Dreams)

Music and lyrics by Simon Spencer

Produced by Jonathan Atkins

Performed by Jimmy Humbucker & Napalm Dreams (Re-recorded June 2018)

Lyrics by Simon Spencer © 2014 All Rights Reserved.

Intro

Oh little one, oh little one 

can I sing you a lullaby?

Oh little one, oh little one

Girl don’t you be so shy

Oh little one, oh little one 

No matter where you are 

you will always be in my heart 

(Instrumental break)

Oh little one oh little one

wish I could be with you

Oh Little one oh little one 

Don’t you feel that way too? 

Oh little one oh little one 

where in the world are you? 

Cause your lost in my dreams again 

funny how life isn’t fair

CHORUS

How your eyes 

oh your eyes 

their electric blue light

can shine brighter than the sea 

And your face 

and your smile 

Is worth more than what I can see 

Behind the illusion of technology 

Oh little one oh little one 

your such a fragile bird 

oh little one oh little one 

telling me your insecure? 

oh little one oh little one 

I’ll repair your wings 

And if you choose me 

I’ll be your safe haven 

Oh little one oh little one 

How I dream of you 

Oh little one oh little one 

Though I may nev-er see you 

Oh little one oh little one 

If I could hold you 

Just one time 

I’ll never forget it 

CHORUS 

How your eyes 

oh your eyes 

their electric blue light

can shine brighter than the sea 

And your face 

and your smile 

Is worth more than what I can see 

Behind this illusion of technology 

Bridge 

Outro

Oh little one oh little one 

Don’t you know that I love you?

oh little one oh little one

but the world doesn’t care 

oh little one oh little one 

Come dance with me someday 

If fate has it our way 

You can be my best friend 

Oh my little one

Hey friends,

Been working with a close friend of mine and my brother’s on new material in his home studio over the last month or so.

I’m excited to share with you one of our creations. A new take on a not-so-new track of mine I released on the platforms with the ¡Little One! -EP back in 2018.

Without further ado friends – So Long Little One.

I played here last summer! This is unreal..

I’m really upset by the fact that small venues like The Boat in Kensington Market​ ave been supporting very amateur local acts like myself for years because of social distancing and this dam global disaster that is COVID-19.

If you’re a local Toronto musician like me and are struggling to pay your rent because of this SHITSHOW of a year, please tell me what you miss about live music, touring, and the music scene in general (Physical, NOT virtual)

Read more in this article from BlogTO. 

A Toronto bar that first opened its doors in 1976 and was the setting for lots of music videos is now closing permanently.
The Boat in Kensington M…
— Read on www.blogto.com/eat_drink/2020/11/the-boat-toronto-closed/

Guys, seriously…

It’s more important than EVER to support localvenues, let alone artists like me…

I’m going to be making MORE posts on here as well as on my socials including new music ad well as live-stream announcements soon about how exactly you CAN support me and my local Toronto-music-scene songwriter pals, but for now, please check out my new music “QuaranTunes” over at my music page.